Left DC early this morning for 2 shows. Rye was kicking butt and taking names. Now at 2:30am I’m on a train from Long Island to penn station to DC. I end this trip at 9:30am. Crazy…. Right. Some times life throws ya a couple of curve balls in a row. Fighting feelings of stress and fear probably now more then ever. Fear for my kid’s well being and fear for the future.
I wish I could honestly say that doubt isn’t part of this equation. It creeps in so suddenly. Why do I let it? I let it because I look right now instead of big picture. God has not let this play out the way Brandy or myself planned it but he continues to provide the entire time. I wish I could fast forward through all this for Rye but I know then Id miss the journey. He never lets go. EVER. Even in the dark he doesn’t. He continues to hold my baby girl in his arms even when I can’t. Why he doesn’t end the chaos now ill never know. But I trust.
We continue to lean on family and friends and they continue to blow my mind. You’ll never know the comfort you supply in these dark times.